Fuck I just graduated uni. I say just. Unfortunately I left university in June and it is now nearing the end of September …and I’m still treating this situation as ‘oooh I’ve just come home isn’t it wonderful when parents cook for you, and you don’t have to put money on the meter just so you can spend the day watching bargain hunt and eating dry toast’. I am so royally screwed. Everyone else is heading back to uni or enjoying their careers that they have carved out whilst I’ve been swanning about drinking copious amounts of gin and pretending to be a ladybird. I’m now in a silly amount of debt, living with my parents (no offence ma and pa) and I work at the same shop I’ve worked in since I was 16, with no clue how I’m actually going to get out of dodge. (See that was a little melodramatic, I actually live in the countryside, and it isn’t that bad, there’s just a lot of people talking like farmers and wearing gilets. I don’t even know what/where dodge is, I’ve probably saw it on Oliver Twist and adopted it into my everyday vocab. But you get the picture. I just kind of pictured my life going in a slightly more exciting direction. Doesn’t everyone? When I was 6 I thought I was going to be a ballerina but unfortunately chubby dancers don’t do well (Tracy Turnblad is the only exception). When I was a teenager I thought I would be in skins, but I’m really not very rock and roll, I can’t take drugs (not that I’ve tried) and the idea of being at a party where the walls are sweating and everyone’s got syphilis is really not my thing. At 18 I went to uni full of hope for the future and I’ve come out at 21 with less idea than before. Not that uni was a bad idea, it was the best thing I’ve ever done, I just kind of assumed I’d be welcomed into the world of acting with open arms, preferably Ryan Goslings arms but right now I’d settle for following Eamonn Holmes into the bright lights of a TV studio, and lord knows I dislike that man. However before I lose my mind completely I’m going to have to tuck myself up in bed with a bit of True Blood and a cup of tea. And breathe.